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The latest fad for this school year is being a PUNK.. as everyone by now should know. Yes, it's getting to the point where it's sickening to walk into school every morning and see some girl wearing a shirt that says "PUNK" and proclaiming she's 'hardcore'. This 'style' is going to be an epidemic in schools, if not already. It's sad enough to see Clark being overrun by posers who can't get a clue about individuality. To me, being punk used to be something of originality, or "attitude" like some people like to label it. Now.. it's just another marketing strategy sold by Hot Topic. Really, it's uncalled for.
I don't mind if people dress punk or not, but it's starting get a 'domino effect' theme going around. Some people need to realize that listening to bands like Good Charlotte, Slipnot, or whatever 'punkish' band there is out there means you are not classified as a punk. Having a 2 inch mohawk wouldn't make a difference either. It's just showing off a rather unique style of hair than being punk. Punk isn't dead yet (or at least I don't think it is), but the term is being abused *way* too much. Trends piss me off so much. Who cares if Dolce & Gabanna will be in 'til next fucking winter? Who ACTUALLY gives a shit if K-swiss is an out style? Be yourself, people. It's actually the *easiest* way to get notice (for all you reputation hounds out there). I have seen alot of girls in my time try to get a high social status with their clothes alone and it doesn't work. My friend Nikki isn't the crunchiest chip in the bag for fashion, but her personality has certainly got her far with being aquainted with people. Get it? It doesn't pay to put on a different masquerade and be somebody you're not. Nobody is going to remember you by how you were in love with Hurley back in 8th grade. It's just not gonna happen.
If Goth ever became a fad, I might just light myself on fire.
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| Getting benched and the 03-04 school year! |
[31 Aug 2003|06:56am] |
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Thanks to Mrs. B that the whole JV squad was benched from last Thursday's game. Apparently we didn't "know" the material, and we were so bad that Varsity had their mouthes to the floor. I find that *very* hard to understand. That is simply the most ridiculous thing i've ever heard of. And you know why the coaches think it's ridiculous too? The coaches can't see that it is their faults for pulling us out of the game. If it takes the whole squad of JV and nearly everyone in Freshman to get benched, then there is obviously something wrong with the coaches. My days have just gotten a little morbid because we're being overworked with no rewards. All the practice we have done for 2 weeks and we get dirt thrown in our face for it? It's damn right we were all willing to support our JV football whether there was material that we knew or not. At testing we weren't all that bad, but we needed to clean things up. But..to bench an entire squad for mistakes? Come on. I'm not putting entire blame on the coaches, but if you ask any other cheerleader they would agree how ridiculous it was. It's over, and I don't consider it a 'benching' because there was nothing we done wrong. Somebody needs to seriously fire Mrs. B.
For 03-04 I got all the classes I was wishing for! Keyboarding, Spanish I, Marine Science, English III, U.S. History, and Geometry. Alot of people have said that Junior year is the hardest year of anyone's High School life, but what makes it so hard? Personally I think it's a time to rock on! This is the second to the last year before it's off to college so i'm making the best of it now. So far the start off of 03-04 has been great so far despite my predictions of hell and depression. :D
Chayna
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| Evolving? Eh.. |
[13 Aug 2003|03:41pm] |
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The internet is just not for me anymore is it? Now I have my computer to blame for my decaying vision. By November or so contacts are most likely going to be on the shopping list, because how am I supposed to be a driver if I can't see straight? Last time I took an eye test my left eye turned out to be 20/60 with my right 20/40. That's...not a good sign.
It's pointless for me to sit here like I used to for 8 hours on end and get nothing accomplished. And right now, this isn't accomplishing anything with me bitching about it. I feel like pulling the plug on this hot box. There's so many things i'd love to get done but there's no more time anymore. I can't find any time to salvage either. Maybe this is the point where I i'm starting to be an individual in reality. I had my fun when I was little, so I guess this is the time when i'm maturing. Well, that's how I put it. It's confusing to me, though. I don't understand alot of things going on with me. Everything about me has changed dramatically over the summer and I feel like..a different person all of a sudden. This is must be what it feels to grow up, I suppose?
I dunno. Don't ask me.
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| The Aeris resurrection conspiracy!! Mwahaha!! |
[17 Jul 2003|06:55pm] |
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I understand that there is no possible way in resurrecting Aerith in FFVII. Okay, so maybe there IS a way. Gameshark, duh. Buut...there is this one infamous rumor that was spread that seemed so confident that Aeris can be *truly* brought back to life.
The site that i'm referring to is now taken down, but I remember going to this website that had seemed to figure out how to revive her. I'm sure by now everyone who knows FFVII knows the rumor of equipping Cloud with his Buster sword, attaching only the Revive Materia, and battling until the AP reachers 10,000. In result 'Resurrect' will appear, and supposibly it's a secret spell you can cast to revive Aerith at the bottom of the little pool in the Ancient City. Since this particular person was so sure with this (and he even provided pictures!), I have been testing this theory out for the last year. Nothing has happened. It's just a result of another person trying to get attention drawn to them. The proof looked like it came right out the game! I was blown away when I seen the pictures...because they looked like the real deal. It even had the Materia menu with Resurrect under the Revive Materia! For a second I thought that there was a way to revive her after all. But also I heard the same rumor with using a different sword that Cloud has, so I can prove that it's a bunch of bullshit. I had to admit I was shocked when I seen the pictures but people tend to pull alot of bullshit these days. Especially on the internet. Ever since i've been trying to get this 'Resurrect' but nothing's happening.
It just goes to show that Aerith is meant to stay dead at the bottom of the little pool. Sure she's a great character but there's no use for her past DISC 2. She's done all that she could and went out with a bang. I've seen so many ridiculous rumors about this that it's a surprise that they are still up on the internet -- and still even going around! Aeris is dead, she's not coming back, and that's that. I have always believed that there is no way to bring her back, but then again what about that cave in the City of Ancients? In the scene after the sleeping forest? At the bottom right of the screen, there is a leafy vine hanging down which leads to a cliff that then leads on into an unknown opening. I didn't notice this until about a year ago and in a way I was psyched because it was most likely something that had to do with the City of Ancients. So much for the vine since Cloud won't climb it. But it's mysterious.
The opening must have lead to somewhere in the city. I guess nobody will ever know since you can't get up there. What about Aeris appearing in the Church when you get the key? FFVII is of course incomplete, and as far as I know there was supposed to be dialog with her 'ghost' but Square hashed it out since it wasn't going to work with the plot. That could explain why you can't get up that vine in the City of Ancients, because maybe it had something to do with the dialog but it was cut. Hell, that might be a rumor as well. Whatever the reason for it, we all know that we're never going to find out if Aeris can be truly revived. Honestly if I was an employee for Square I wouldn't say anything either. It's an interesting topic, though, how the result of the incomplete version of FFVII can bring questioning to the ghost in the Church and the resurrection process. I guess Squaresoft is only going to keep us guessing on that one huh? We'll never know. ;)
Oh, and one more thing. Terra (FF9) has to do something with The Promised Land (FF7)? Terra resembles the City of Ancients way too much, and the part where the team gets sucked into the portal looks like the ending scenes from FFVII. Come on, Kuja/Angel of Death and Sephiroth/One Winged Angel. Both are drop dead gorgeous villains with silver tinted hair! Plus, both the main characters are in search for themselves and both of the parties have talking animals (Freya and Red XIII). Er, yeah. It's fun to rant about FF, but I better stop before I get too carried away with things. Heh.
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| Ah, memories.. |
[11 Jul 2003|11:56am] |
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Nobody realizes how Third Eye Blind is such a kick ass band. I was rummaging through my old CD stack last night and I just so happened to come across "Blue". The CD is well over 4 years old or so, but it hasn't been played since I was in 8th grade. When I listened to it last night, it brought back memories from the 'Hyde Park' era. Most of my friends used to kick back after school and listen to it, or at some point in the day Mary would be singing along to the lyrics.
When I was listening to it, I never realized what friendship is worth. Like they say: You don't realize what you have until it's gone. I hate to dwell on the past, but I couldn't help it last night since it brought back so many good times we all had. Gosh, if there was only a time machine invented i'd definitely go back to visit that time more than once. You know, things haven't been the same without Mary around. In truth she was the only friend there for me in 7th grade and she meant alot to me. So many bad times, so many good times. I should call her, but I don't want to. Maybe i'm just scared to. Scared of being rejected all these years for not keeping in contact.
This isn't important, but I was fustrated this morning because the damned Harvest god in Havest Moon decided to add more land to the property than I needed. He could at least gave me a damned fishing pole! ;(
Need. More. Games.
Oh, and 3eb rules all. :D
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| Yes, the summer is quite tedious, don't you think? |
[09 Jul 2003|10:51am] |
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This summer has been unbelievably fast. To me, it doesn't seem like any summer vacation i've been enjoying before. It's already the second week of July! School doesn't start again in another 6 weeks..but that time will go right out the window and it's practice until 5:30 before I know it.
Deep down I truthfully want to go back to school. It's a crazy thing to say that I miss homework, but it beats doing nothing all day. Plus, I need to get my credit for PE fixed. When I got my final card in the mail there was no grade OR a credit listed under PE. One thing that pisses everyone off (even the teaching staff) is how the office staff seem to screw up on everything. Freshman year I had 10 freaking absences out of nowhere and last year me and HIM nearly got RPC'd because of kissing in the hallways. Come on. One thing is for sure that even though I desperately want to go back to school, this will be the worst year I will have. I have no knowledge of how it will go, but I have a bad feeling about it.
I'm not sure as of now how many credits you need to be a Junior (15?), but hopefully that mistake won't leave me as a second year Sophomore, because that's ALL I need in my life right now besides other problems. Actually i'm pretty anxious on taking Marine Science for my Junior year. Well, hopefully there will be a Marine Science class. My Biology teacher last year said it was a new class to the school. I was greatful that I signed up for it because my future career will most likely consist with animals. What's funny is that i'm the only crazy person of my class to take 4 years of science classes instead of 2. Generally science isn't a big interest, but if it's dealing with animals..well shit i'm all over it. The class I want to take sooo badly is Zoology H but that has to wait until Senior year. Gah, can't wait!!!
Nothing much new for now. Just reading tutorials for PSP paintbrushes. I might make a website, but of what? 'Have no clue. Either of Orgy (i've always wanted to make one! Grr!) or of Nicholas D. Wolfwood! Hah! Thanks to LIZ, i'm a Trigun addict now. I have yet to see Wolfwood in action on the Anime, so I can't wait for that either! In the long run Vash is a pretty cool guy. Heh. Reminds me of Billy Idol in a way (so does Zell). And did I mention he has the cutest insane laugh? Rawr.
'm gonna go play some FFIX now. Later. ;x
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| Where can I find an "Americanized" boy these days? |
[05 Jul 2003|10:29am] |
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You know what, fuck relatioships, and all guys. At this point in time I am OVER with ALL of them. It's funny how I never knew something like this could really screw me up in a way. It was just a break-up. That's it. But moving on and forgetting about those days spent in a year and 7 months is hard to deal with. We broke up because of personal problems, and because of the fact that he's "Mexican" and he's going to "ruin" my life. I wanted to cry when my grandfather started to say things that were putting his race down and making up false things that weren't even close to true. It hurts. Alot. Every friend I have who is another race other than American is always talked about in a rude way. Like they aren't even human. We all are human; race doesn't exist. It's all in the mind.
I guarantee if you took a DNA test on two people of different races I know that nothing in the DNA will say that person is African, Malaysian, xtc. In a way I feel that it's none of their business to care what my boyfriend's skin color is or his nationality. Though it's their right to know his backround they shouldn't say that a Mexican is a bad thing for an Italian/American. But since my grandparents are from the "old ways" I guess they can't understand these days. No matter how much I talk to them. And because all of this petty shit it had to end because of a racial issue. Everything to them is always "Find an AMERICANIZED boy" or "You can get better looking guys that THAT". I fucking had it with this "American boy" bullshit...who GIVES A DAMN about race anymore? This isn't the fucking 1930's for Christ's sake. Just what the fuck is Americanized supposed to mean? Nothing to them ever seems handsome or nice-looking. It's always the same "Uh! Look at him! I can't believe you'd pick a guy like that!" shit. All the time. They acts as if i'm a fucking princess who can seduce any guy I want.
Everything is going to stop now. I am over with relationships. Anything to not hear them talk about how I need someone who is Americanized. The most ridiculous thing i've ever heard. I'm confused by what it means because i've never heard of such a thing. Does it mean that your skin has to be fair? You have blue eyes? You have blonde hair? I can't ask why 'cause all they tell me is "You'll find out when you get older". Right now i'd rather be independent then let someone carry my books for me you know? I have a mind and I know that I can get through this. I don't need him or any other guys anymore. And I don't need someone who has problems with the color of a person's skin. Never in my life would I be prejudice for such a stupid thing. I can help myself in this world. I know I can. It's hard to move on without a person you spent a year and 7 months with. I was too involved with him and look what happened. Now I know I won't get involved too much too early with someone ever again because I don't want to go through the heartbreak. It's the worst feeling in the world. I'm okay now, i'm sure I can get through it. It just takes a little time right? No problem..
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[02 Jul 2003|07:07pm] |
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If I would have know that the fundraiser would have been the most torturing moment out of the 5 hours of my life, I would have brought along a magazine. But, I don't have anyone to blame. It's just me bitching again like usual. Actually it wasn't all that bad. You know you're in serious business when 3 customers bought fireworks right? -snicker.- The Gods must have heard our complaints about the coach, for the U-Haul of firework boxes fell ontop of Miss B while she was unloading. Lol, I don't mean to be mean but it was the only good entertainment we had all day. And plus she deserved it!
Everytime I update this I plan to put something in here that will be an eyeful, but after the 1st paragraph or so I get lazy.
Woo. Once I feel rejuvinated, I think i'll update some again. xD
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| selfishness |
[29 Jun 2003|04:24pm] |
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I have no desire to update this at all. My internet interest over the past .. 2 years I believe has been dying out. There is just too many things going on at once right now. Now is the time I want to get rid of AOL since it has corrupted nearly half of the files on my computer, thus only pissing me off further! -slap-
Well, cheer camp wasn't the best time i've had. The highlights of the week was the dances and the games, but as far as team bonding goes.. forget about it! It was like being on the fucking Real World from Hell! Thanks to a certain someone, we've lost two people over one chick's egotistical power-trip. It's sad when a person doesn't have any friends to turn to because of their dominatrix-type personality. Personally i'll be able to deal with it, only 'coz i'm a passive aggressive type person. I think some people need a talk about how they can't always get what they want, nor have everything their way.
I would explain, but I don't feel like it right now. -yawn?-
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| A sin to blame God for boredness you say? |
[16 Jun 2003|05:28pm] |
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Like this entry said about a day ago, Michelle threatened me to use this once again. I really don't have much to say in this except my life is a little jampacked with pre-campness right now. I am not going to be home all week until next Monday, so hopefully i'll last until then.
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